Monday with Mel

All I Want To Do

by Chloe Caldwell

Pretending is ruining my life. I pretend I am Bukowski while cracking a beer and writing poems about sex and whiskey. I started to think maybe I could be Poe Ballantine so I’ve moved across the country to work a graveyard shift and be poor. I lift weights, channeling Sheryl Crow, trying to get those killer arms and then I drink a beer at noon on a Tuesday at a bar that faces a giant car wash. I am Henry Miller because friends give me furniture and books and often the bartenders buy my drinks and come back to my apartment. The reality of it is that I am a twenty something who doesn’t know what to be or where to live and I have been waking up in apartments with sounds and appliances, views and scenery that I don’t understand, isolated from the people that love me.

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Chloe Caldwell loves to take vitamins. She is excited about being forthcoming in http://bananafishmagazine.com and about the next time the sun will come out. It has been eleven days. You can email her at cocomonet@gmail.com, if you want to.